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lonely at best

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 10, 2007, 10:05 AM
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Matchbox 20
  • Watching: Computer Screen
  • Drinking: Water
soooo i have been listening to this song and it has really hit me HARD... i guess its just that season when you wish someone was there for you to fall asleep next to, someone to keep warm at night, or even just make you laugh when your smile is upside down.

i dont think i have really let anyone in to get close enough to love me and maybe it would be nice to try out sometime soon.

im just tired all the time now, tired of not loving or letting or liking or losing or hating. it wears me out. i just want to open up to someone who wants to listen, someone who wants to care and fix.

i want to stop drinking and caring so much.

why hasnt someone tried to give me what i need?



Matchbox 20
“Hand Me Down”

Someday they'll find your small town world on a big town avenue
Gonna make you like the way they talk when they're talking to you
Gonna make you break out of the shell cause they tell you to
Gonna make you like the way they lie better than the truth
They'll tell you everything you wanted someone else to say
They're gonna break your heart, yeah

From what I've seen
You're just a one more hand me down
Cause no one's tried to give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down
I am with you now

Somebody ought to take you in
Try to make you love again
Try to make you like the way they feel
When they're under your skin
Never once did you think they would lie when they're holding you
You wonder why they haven't called
When they said they'd call you
You start to wonder if you're ever gonna make it by
You'll start to think you were born blind

From what I've seen
You're just a one more hand me down
Cause no one's tried to give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down
I am with you now

I'm here for the hard times
The straight to your heart times
Whenever it ain't easy
You can stand up against me
And maybe rely on me
And cry on me, yeah
Oh no, no, no

Some day they'll open up your world
Shake it down on a drawing board
Do their best to change you
They still can't erase you

From what I've seen
You're just a one more hand me down
Cause no one's tried to give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down
I am with you now

Lay them down on me
Oh yeah
You're just one more hand me down
And all those nots don't give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down...on me

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 23
  • Current Residence: Towanda, PA
  • Interests: anything that moves me in one way or another
  • Favourite movie: Romeo + Juliet
  • Favourite band or musician: Ville Valo, Maynard James Keenan
  • Favourite genre of music: ALL OF THEM
  • Favourite artist: Linda Bergkvist
  • Favourite poet or writer: Josh Boatman, Poe, Ville Valo, Maynard James Keenan, Imogen Heap, Damien Rice...
  • Favourite photographer: Too many to name
  • Favourite style of art: black and white anything
  • MP3 player of choice: http://www.pplaylist.com/user/2907391

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=escapethevoid:iconescapethevoid: 6 days 19 hours ago
thanks for stopping by! :wave:

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~victimofadrowning:iconvictimofadrowning: Apr 23, 2008, 9:27:06 AM
no problem, i like a lot of your work
*rejectedangel18:iconrejectedangel18: Apr 22, 2008, 6:10:11 PM
thanks soo mcuh for the friend thingy!
lol

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~victimofadrowning:iconvictimofadrowning: Apr 7, 2008, 9:34:19 AM
you are welcome, i wish i lived where they grew :D
*Livid-Angel:iconLivid-Angel: Apr 6, 2008, 10:47:47 PM
I've never thought about that. Thank you for the perspective.

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~victimofadrowning:iconvictimofadrowning: Mar 27, 2008, 1:01:40 PM
you are very welcome, that is one of my absolute favorite movies by far
~Ewanecka:iconEwanecka: Mar 27, 2008, 9:10:22 AM
thanks for the fav on the altered book! :hug:

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~victimofadrowning:iconvictimofadrowning: Mar 25, 2008, 1:34:05 PM
sorry i didnt get to your comment earlier, you are very welcome, this picture is very feminine but not girly, and a little dark but not gothic or dreary. very nice
~victimofadrowning:iconvictimofadrowning: Mar 25, 2008, 1:31:51 PM
i love your trees, they are very beautiful, almost like it would be peaceful where they grew
~EinKurogane:iconEinKurogane: Mar 11, 2008, 11:20:13 AM
Yes, it's like a little division about the bad and good things like the water and the modern buildings.

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~victimofadrowning:iconvictimofadrowning: Mar 11, 2008, 11:15:59 AM
your welcome, i love the effect from the black and white to the color. very nice job.
~victimofadrowning:iconvictimofadrowning: Mar 3, 2008, 7:24:19 AM
thank you very much, i love mermaids and knew as soon as i saw it i wanted it tattooed. i have always wanted a tat on the inside of my wrist and might get one there next month. i actually found the artist who drew the mermaid on here and i was so excited i couldnt believe it [link]
~theeesuperman:icontheeesuperman: Mar 2, 2008, 11:58:27 AM
i think ur mermaid tattoo is awesome. i have a cross on my back and im gettin intials on my wrists in a few weeks. ive always been interested in mermaids from i was a kid and i just thought ur tattoo was brilliant. i wud love to get one too.....need a more masculine tattoo i think though lol
~victimofadrowning:iconvictimofadrowning: Feb 27, 2008, 1:41:41 PM
no problem, glad to help
=kire1987:iconkire1987: Feb 27, 2008, 1:38:54 PM
omg... thanks for the hint! I hate those rippers arrrrgh >_>
~victimofadrowning:iconvictimofadrowning: Feb 27, 2008, 1:26:39 PM
i absolutely love the photo... but i wanted to tell you it is also here [link]
=kire1987:iconkire1987: Feb 27, 2008, 12:44:10 PM
thx a lot for the fav!
see ya later alligator :ahoy:
=chakrabird:iconchakrabird: Feb 18, 2008, 2:59:35 AM
Thanks for the fav :-)

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*Livid-Angel:iconLivid-Angel: Feb 5, 2008, 10:07:09 PM
Thank you for the favs. =)

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*TayaRavena:iconTayaRavena: Jan 25, 2008, 3:34:30 PM
thank you for the fav! :aww:

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~Beautifullblood:iconBeautifullblood: Jan 17, 2008, 2:57:23 PM
Thanks a lot for the fav!!! :hug:

:smooch:I'm really appreciated!! :aww:

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~Hellknight10:iconHellknight10: Jan 10, 2008, 4:33:13 PM
thanx for the +fav on my "Premature Conscience" piece [link] :D
*rejectedangel18:iconrejectedangel18: Jan 9, 2008, 8:36:43 PM
thanks so much for the fave!
much appreciated!

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